She helped raise me when I was a child and I have many fond memories of her. If not for this dear woman I would not have had much appreciation for my Savior and my God, Jesus.
She was placed in Hospice back in 2005 by Dr. Robert Blackburn- a quack in Spring Hill, FL. He did not even bother seeing her before placing her there. She made a fool out of him by living about four years more than he expected.
As I prayed concerning how I felt about her passing, I was reminded of David when his son from Bathsheba (Uriah's wife- the one David stole from him and had him killed over) died:
After Nathan had gone home, the LORD struck the child that Uriah's wife had borne to David, and he became ill. 16 David pleaded with God for the child. He fasted and went into his house and spent the nights lying on the ground. 17 The elders of his household stood beside him to get him up from the ground, but he refused, and he would not eat any food with them.
18 On the seventh day the child died. David's servants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, "While the child was still living, we spoke to David but he would not listen to us. How can we tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate."
19 David noticed that his servants were whispering among themselves and he realized the child was dead. "Is the child dead?" he asked. "Yes," they replied, "he is dead."
20 Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the LORD and worshiped. Then he went to his own house, and at his request they served him food, and he ate.
21 His servants asked him, "Why are you acting this way? While the child was alive, you fasted and wept, but now that the child is dead, you get up and eat!"
22 He answered, "While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, 'Who knows? The LORD may be gracious to me and let the child live.' 23 But now that he is dead, why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me." (2 Samuel 12.15-23 NIV)
I prayed for my dear grandmother as she was alive, and hoped for her then. However, now she has gone on and my time of grief is only about missing her. As David asked, I ask, "Can I bring her back again?" Obviously, no. Perhaps we will meet again in heaven. That is my hope.